Exhaustion Setting In

   "A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man." Proverbs 24: 33-34.  "The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is slave to the lender. " Proverbs 22:7.  The Lord led me to these verses tonight to encourage me.  Not the most encouraging verses right?  I didn't think so either until I started thinking about it.  You see, I miss my husband.  He is my best friend.  Not the cliche, "I'm married to my best friend!"  No.  He truly is my best friend.  He knows everything about me, he is patient with me, he supports me, he loves me unconditionally, and he is a HUGE help to me when he is home.  As I sit here and watch a documentary about tornados (I know...don't judge me) I can just feel the emptiness; and I don't like it.
     Being alone comes with the territory of being a fireman's wife, this I know.  We also knew that this year was going to be tough.  After almost three months of K basically working four days straight and then being home for two we are starting to feel it here at home.  We all miss him.  That's why these verses were so encouraging to me.  They spell out exactly what we are avoiding by K being gone so much and what we are living out at the same time.  The first verse gives purpose to this emptiness and the second rings true in so many ways.  Let me tell you, we definitely feel like servants to Chase Bank until these credit cards are paid off.   Thank you Jesus for knowing exactly what I need to hear and when.
     Here's a funny story, I had a fail moment last Saturday and stopped at Dutch Bros. on my way to the kid's basketball games. (Yay for transparency)  They got smoothies and I got a coffee.  I wasn't supposed to get that coffee.  Know why?  My parents showed up to the game with a surprise coffee for me!  GEORGIA.  GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD.  GOD KNOWS YOUR NEEDS.  EVEN COFFEE.  REMEMBER THE GIFT CARDS!?!?!?  I think I am still shaking from all the caffeine I drank that day.

***(Hang on while I find a new documentary to watch...the tornado one just ended.  Here we go...National Geographic: Dawn of the Maya.  Exciting, right!?)***

     I realized tonight that this journey doesn't end after this year is up.  We need to keep moving forward so that this doesn't happen again.  No more servant role for us unless we are serving our God!  I realized today that we quit the first go around.  We stopped following the Dave Ramsey principles after we had our debt paid off and never moved past baby step number two.  Not this time.  We will attack the emergency fund next so this doesn't happen again.  God has blessed us with too much for us to live our lives in bondage.
     So friends, pray for us please.  Pray that I can be still and just trust God.  Pray that God will continue to encourage us to finish the race as we are only 1/4 of the way through the year.  If you are reading this blog know that I am praying for you and asking God to highlight what you might need to read today.  That you might leave this site feeling encouraged (except for my whiny post today ;))  in your finances and ready to tackle some debt along with us!